I am skipping around trying to cover 5 years of this addiction as quickly as I can but it seems like alot just to be filling up space. I'm going to continue to document history but I want to put down a few very important learnings that took a long time for me to accept.
These may seem like flippant cliches but they really have meaning when living with and addict.
Love alone cannot cure this illness, we love him but he loves drugs.
We didn't ask for this. We didn't cause this. We can't fix this.
Every day thousands of people across this globe decide to and stop using drugs and never use them again. My job is to keep him alive until his day.
I can't fix this.
Until he wants to quit I am powerless to control or help with his addiction.
Protect yourself, his addiction cannot be allowed to destroy your life, family or marriage.
There are consequences for using drugs, those consequences are his not mine.
Oh by the way, did I mention, "I CAN'T FIX THIS!"
I'm sure there will be more as I write but I think you will begin to see from our past that these were hard things to accept by Dad and Mom.