Sunday, January 25, 2009

Exhaustion

Another sleepless night. Where is he? Is he alright? Did he have anything to eat? Is he alive?

But these are not new feelings. When he is out of our sight those are the overwhelming questions that flood our mind all the time. The only time a we are not consumed with these is when he is in rehab or jail.

What a desperate feeling, jail and rehab are considered safe places for our son.

Black Tar Heroin, that is what he is doing now. I googled it and that did not make me feel better.

2 comments:

Blind Faith said...

Hi! My name is Heather and I've been clean and sober since September 14, 1999. My drug of choice was meth. I just wanted to stop by and encourage you. We can and DO change if we're willing to do the work. I'll remember you all in my prayers and with your permission, add you to my blogroll.

Debby said...

I am immersed in reading your blog. I can't believe it. My son smokes black tar heroin. He started with oxy.
I can't stop reading...and my heart goes out to you. I feel your pain.
I'm here, if you need someone to share with.
My blog is more lengthy... but we share similar stores.
Debby
www.howismyson.blogspot.com